by Angel McAdams
Honestly I never thought it would happen to me. It isn’t that I don’t believe; it’s more like all I could think was, “Not me.” I’m not good enough for something like that…..until we got to Reality #5 in the series. God’s personal invitation to join Him results in a personal crisis of trust and belief. Wow! He didn’t just give me a personal invitation; He actively pursued me to make sure I was coming to the party that in my mind I had no intention of going to.
God provided me with the strength to seek out help for what I was informed actually was a crisis of belief. He provided me with the people to guide me through what I needed to do. Then Reality #6 rolled around. I had to make major life adjustments. Was God really speaking to me? God was showing Himself through the answers that were being given to me through the series, which went exactly with the struggle I was going through. This was something I had prayed for and asked others to pray for. The answer was very painful to receive and I faced a crisis of belief I had never imagined I would encounter. The Holy Spirit spoke to my heart though, that in order to get out of the darkness I so desperately wanted to get out of, I would have to make major life adjustments. I was so compelled to share this with my New Hope family at a Sunday evening Experiencing God study session. Instead of being judged or questioned, I was supported, inspired, and surrounded by unconditional love. I have not had much of that in my life so I really wasn’t expecting it. So many people were praying for me the day this major life adjustment was to be made. That whole day the enemy threw so many things at me, trying to make me think I wasn’t capable of doing what I had to do. I prayed so much that day and every wall that was put up was broken down one way or another.
When it came to the moment of truth, Christ gave me the strength and the words to say and do what I had to. There is no other answer for that because I knew I could never do what I DID accomplish. The whole situation that I thought was going to go quite badly actually went very smoothly. Even when I tried to fall into guilt and despair when all was done, I couldn’t. My Father was holding me safely to Himself because of my act of obedience to Him. He has kept me safe through my emotional roller coaster by placing certain people in my life. I know I have truly experienced God in my life and it is so awesome. Through this crisis I was finally able to realize that I was of worth to Him. I also came to know that “I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength” (Philippians 4:13).


